The Ups & Downs Of Being A SAHM ( on a more serious note)

Not just a mother but a wife, a person, a maid ..... 

I know this is going to sound bad but sometimes I think that being a SAHM has it's effects on me big time. Even though I am very grateful to be able to stay home with my young children and take care of them. I think it really takes it toll on me more mentally then anything. Being home all day with no adult interaction , no talking no anything. After a few days of that can drive anyone insane. People tell me how lucky I am that I do not have to work and so on. But to be honest with you I want to be working. 


My children's laughs and smile can melt my heart in a matter of minutes and make me see just why I love being a mom. Playing with them and watching them grow each day. Taking photo's , watching each milestone is the biggest gift any mother could as for. Yet, I sometimes wish I did not have be here 24/7. Then I cannot help but feel down and ashamed of myself. I wanted a family and that is what I got and then I have to have these negative feelings. How sad is that? 

I cannot help but feel like a maid pretty much most of the time. My job is the same every day. I try to make more things happen like extra activities and so on. But to be honest for me it is a lot to do with four young children. I just hope they are happy and have fun with me. Sometimes I just do not feel I am doing my part. 

If only I could do more.