Dribble Drabble

        Today as I sat on my computer reading the "Happy Thanksgivings" and what people are thankful for. I knew what I was thankful for but having the day I was have already at 9am I just felt beat down. Kinda ashamed for my thoughts but it was true. I wanted that day to be a wonderful day and my mind free of unwanted things that rack my brain. Putting up with stuffy noses, sleepless nights, whining kids, and being sick myself for about the last two weeks. Sometimes I have no idea how I even function to be honest with you. I have probably had about 48 hours of sleep in the last 7 days. When I think about how people ask me if I am crazy and how do I do it. Well, to be honest I am not sure how I do it and YES I MUST BE CRAZY. But I look at it like this. Someone has to do it. They are to little to do it for themselves. And I wanted children so this is the route I must take and just truck through it. Now, like every other person in the world there are always other things happening in your life or even maybe just things running through your head that just adds to your stress and makes things even worse. You get to the point where you break mentally. A person can only take so much.

       I went ahead and started to push it to the back of my mind which I know for a fact that there was little room left for all the nonsense floating around in there. But I trucked on through it. Helped my husband prepare dinner for my family and refused to not have a good day. And So I did. No matter what those little smile of my four babies always melt my heart and make me feel better. And my family always seem to make me feel better as well. As I sat at my table today eating and talking about things said or things that have happened and everyone is laughing and just having a good time. Well, that put a smile to my face and made me realize that I want to do some changing for myself. And do it for me and no one else. 

      Tonight I sit here and I think about in the last four years of marriage so fair I have four beautiful children and a loving husband. I love them so much and I am not sure where I would be without them. They are the only ones besides my family that I know love me for me and do not judge me. 

 


I have to say THIS is what I am Thankful for this Thanksgiving!