Tag Teaming Twins

If they could reach out and tag each others hands when one falls asleep etc they would! 

Being the mother of twins and two other boys under the age of four is exhausting. I knew it would be as soon as the doctor said that we would be having twins. My two oldest boys are not to bad they are happy doing what they like playing in their rooms etc. But the twins they are working together against me I sware they are. They both can be sleeping and one wakes ups screaming and I think ok I will feed him or her. Then I change him or her and well that is that. But at least once each day sometime all day they tag team me. One starts screaming and they must be sending a secret scream out for the other to wake up and start screaming as well. It is like seriously come on. I just think go figure. And on those extra special days when my two older children are having a bad day well like is fun. I have even caught myself saying to my oldest son. " You know J.D I should be the one screaming and crying and throwing myself on the ground b/c I have not slept but four hours all week and my last nerve is splinter. But someone how I seem to make it. So suck it up" Sometimes I feel like the worst mother  of all. There is so much I would like to do and sit down and play and show and teach them things but it just seems like time is my enemy right now. It is hard for me to nurse or pump milk for them cause there is always something going on. And well that makes me feel like the worse mother. The one thing i shoudl be able to do is hard for me to do this time around. Along with the never ending pile of laundry and messy house. I think we should just move and start over LOL!!

The twins really throw me for a loop or two. There is something to be said about having twins they are adorable but they are a workout that is for sure. Even though most days I am grouchy and raising my voice at J.D who loves to try my patience and I am sleep deprived and so on. I do love my life and my children. I am trying to cherish each milestone the twins have since they will never happen again. I just want to focus on the growing up part not the baby part. I know I will miss it and regret it later as everyone seems to tell me. " Enjoy this time b/c you will miss this when they are older." I know I will but I am ready for activities I do not know. Just done with diapers and bottles. I had a mother of twins tell me that I needed to hire a nanny to help me with the kids once the twins come but for some reason I just feel like others would be raising my children and I do not want that. These days it is hard to trust people with your kids. Hoping they are not being mishandled etc. So I say screw it and I will get me time and so on once they are in school. I just do not trust people I do not know. I guess that makes then four times harder for me but oh well I will live. The life of a mother never stops and is always tiring. But it is worth it because there is nothing else like it that is for sure. I would not trade one minute of it. :)